Happy! So here’s some diegetic sound.
I’ve been pretty down lately (probably explains why I haven’t updated in a while), which affected my psyche to the point that I couldn’t bring myself to do the things I loved. I was afraid to write, thinking that it would be too much of a punching bag (despite the fact that I have a whole category for that)…as in, I didn’t want to sound like a whiney little nobody. I lost my mojo when it came to dance, so I decided I had to take a break.
College decisions are almost all here, and I’ve gotten more rejections than admissions as expected. But that’s not really the key thing that’s bothering me, considering how I was anticipating such results in the first place. Of course, I felt a little upset when I got rejected, but it’s transient. Nonetheless, I felt my confidence dwindling. I found myself getting more pessimistic, thinking that I wasn’t prepared for life. It was just stress. Moving on.
Of the schools I applied to, I really wanted to get into Columbia, Princeton OR Barnard. These are really competitive schools, so I am definitely not expecting to get into all of them. Then again, since nothing ventured, nothing gained, I still applied…so it’d be nice if I could get into ONE of them! It’s not the reason why I was totally down either, but that’s just…some context.
So I received a piece of good news this morning: an email saying that I got into Barnard! I wasn’t really expecting it because (a) it’s a competitive school that I really wanted, so of course they’d be highly highly highly selective; (b) I liked the school regardless of the competition and the fact that it’s a women’s college, more details disclosed in an earlier post; and (c) an earlier email had said that the decisions would be announced tomorrow, so getting it a day earlier was pretty surprising.
Anyway, it’s now a huge load off my back, and I’m just happy happy happy. Of course, happiness is not something that lasts forever, preaches Maslow’s hierarchy of needs, but it’s still something that I can feel today, and remember in the future.